I have been hurt so bad

and I see it is still the same.

I wish that these people who golly well know

the real words

to call what we abused children of this church have,

through no fault of our own

and it was caused be the very people

who should have taken care of us

is called PTSD.

Post Tremadic Stress Disorder

and it is called by no other name.

I am not mental,

so I don't want to be called as such.

I did try to go and sit through this meeting

about the church 12-7-2004

and I tell you it was so hard

and then they told us to give reasons

why we had turned against the church.

That was it,

I just cried. fancy asking us that

and I said that I could not tell.

Why should I,

when it was the people of the Church

who had caused me leaving

and they try to put the blame back on to me.

NO WAY!

You know people think that after you

have been trodden on

and talked down to

that you just get up and walk away.

Well it dose not work that way

as words are so vile and evil

and they hurt so deep

and sexual abuse is the worst thing

that any one can do to a baby and child.

In Fact it is bad for any person

Baby/child

Boy/Girl and Men/Women.

�@We were forced against our well

to summit to these evil people

who were working for God and these people

were the very core of the mother church.

Priest, nuns and their workers.

Yes, I know what it is like to bow down

to these priest

while they are raping you

and how after

while you are still in shock and pain,

bleeding from your body as well as your heart

and asking why the priest

did this to you

and wondered what you had done wrong

to have deserved

this sort of punishment from God.

What the hell,

is wrong with this church

that it thinks

that we can put this behind us

and go on with life

as if nothing has happened to us,

little innocent children.

This Church is still sending

it's priest�@and nuns

who sexual abused innocent children

away to other countries to hide

and to re-abuse

another child again.

Children are used in this church

as sex slaves to come

and to be there for�@ their

Bibbing and call

for these priest/nuns

and no one sees this.