I Wept

Every�day has to�
start with a first step
Mine was when I saw my childhood
Through my eyes

as a survivor of abuse

and I wept.

I wept because I saw the
sins of sexual abuse in me
as an innocent child

which will not leave me

and�I wept

I wept because I saw the

the dirtiness of my soul

which calls out for healing;

to set me free from sin

and I wept

I wept when I opened

my Heart�to Jesus

as I had left�His side

not once or twice but many times

as Jesus is my Savior

and I wept

I wept each day at Mass

because God gave us

His only Son Jesus to us all

who�died for us so as we could live

and I wept

I wept when Mary,

Jesus Mother gave�us�Her lovingly son

and walked up the hill

to watch her Son die on the cross

to save us all from our sins

and I wept

I wept when a nun acknowledge

to the abuse she did to me

as a child in her care

but the nuns said that their was no

wrong-doing by the nuns

and I wept

I wept when I lost my son

who is in Heaven with God

with my seven lost babies

who passed away before full time

and I wept

I wept at the age of fifty-one

when I saw my brothers and sisters

for the first time in my life

as they talk of our mother with love

and I wept

I wept because

I never saw my mother

as I was told I was an orphan�child

and my mother had past away

before I could see her

and I wept

I wept

because the nuns apologized to me

for the abuse they did to me as a child

with out love

and then said there was

no wrong-doing by the nuns

and I wept

I wept because I�am so blessed

to have Jesus, Mary, St. Joseph

and St. Ann, Mary's Mother

as my Heavenly family

here on earth

and I wept

I wept for the children I see on TV

who have died because of the abuse

they received from their abusers

with no one to help them

and I wept

I wept for�my mother

because I see her in her children

as our mother's love is still in them

with their tender love for our mother

and I wept.

I wept�for joy

when�each baby of ours was born

with love in our Hearts

to share with them our�love so true

as each day goes by

and I wept

I wept each time my daughter

went back to her abusive partner

who abused her more

as each time was worst than before

and I wept

I wept because

one day I will see my mother at last

who awaits for me in Heaven with my son

as that will be the day I will face my God

to stand before Him up above

and I wept

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